If you follow me on twitter @CharlieInThe you will have seen me talk about Hot Work Guy.
Obviously he’s a guy I work with and I really REALLY like him. I’ve been agonising over if I should tell him how much I like him for over a month.
So many things have stopped me.
The fact that we work for the same company, we were on the same campaign so worked together at least once a week and it was ace, we would spend the day laughing, joking and flirting together. We are on different campaigns now, I’m moving to a new one tomorrow (or today as I’m writing this past midnight)
Gossip spreads round our company so easily it is like being back at school sometimes, so this has obviously been a big put off for me.
Also HWG is 19, I am 26. He likes to smoke weed and take other drugs, at 19 I loved to do these things too but since the time I took too much MDMA and went a bit crazy for 2 years I can’t quite bring myself to do them again. Over the Christmas holidays I did smoke a joint with my best friend T, I was very drunk and I got annoyed over how stoned and annoying I found myself being. I was always the one who you couldn’t tell of I was stoned or not before, this has obviouly changed so I just irritated myself.
Anyway, the age thing only bothers me because I worry about what other people think. HWG isn’t like the other 19 year olds I know, he has a wise head on his shoulders.
We went on a night out about a month ago and he got off with the friend of one of our colleagues, he told me that it was just because she came onto him, at one point during the evening they were necking on the sofa, the other people we were with had left to score some coke so to get away I went into the kitchen, made myself a cup of tea and read the paper! That’s how much it upset me because I was going to tell him that night that I liked him.
When i knew he was moving onto a different campaign and I knew we wouldn’t be working together let alone see each other for a while, I messaged him saying if he ever fancied going for a pint sometime to let me know. He replied saying he might take me up on that offer at some pint.
Last Saturday I was bored, alone and drinking at home. I saw that HWG was online on FB, this is how we communicate as he never has credit on his phone. I sent him a message telling him that I hoped it didn’t make things awkward between us but I really fancied him.
His response was “yeah, whatever” He thought something “fishy” was going on, his words. Because it was late at night and so out of the blue.
The next morning I told him I wasn’t joking, I was a bit embarrassed that i had told him but I meant it. It hasn’t been mentioned since.
We have talked via FB again, mainly about the fact that both of us are on our second disciplinary at work but what I said hasn’t been mentioned.
I don’t know what to do. It annoys me that he is basically ignoring what I said, I just don’t know if I should bring it up again. I haven’t spoken to him face to face yet as we don’t work on the same teams anymore.
I need advice, do I take him ignoring what I said as him not fancying me back? Does he think I didn’t mean it? Should I tell him again?
Update – I spent last night talking to HWG about that fact that he resigned from the company we work for yesterday. I’m going to need a new name for him I think. Any way at the end of the conversation I said
“As we definitely won’t be working together again, if you ever fancy meeting for a drink let me know”
His response was ” I most certainly will do”
So I think I’m just going to wait a little bit to see if he does actually ask me out for a drink, if not then I dunno.